Monday, July 31, 2006

I'm getting old!!!!!!!

For the record:

School is going well lately, I’m doing a lot better than I should be doing. I NEVER do anything at all. I’m being lazy but still get decent grades. I’m trying to pull my general GPA up (which it won’t be hard with my classes). Dancing is “there” It’s not doing great but not bad neither… I’m better than my dance partners and I have to teach them everything I know, which helps but I’m not improving that much; For fall semester my dance partners are TONS better than me, so I’m excited to become a good dancer. But right now it’s “there” and it keeps me active. I dance like 30 or more hours a week, so it’s healthy and tons fun!

So I noticed that I haven’t felt bad, sad or negative feeling lately. Well, except that I’ve been frustrated with school, dance, gym and partying. My day starts at 6:30am and finish at 10:30pm almost every day… So sometimes I get in a bad mood, but I don’t really get sad or depressed.
My friends are helping me out so much. Croatian guy is like my best friend right now, we hang out everyday and we do fun things all the time! It’s like the friend I can call and say “let’s go to starbucks! Let’s go to Nordstrom or Banana, let’s go to watch a movie, let’s eat, let’s go to the gym, let’s go hot tubing, let’s call people and hang out, let’s take random pics, let’s run, let’s do anything we feel like doing” and we just hang out and have great time! Finally when I get a person that I can have FUN with all the time, that person has to go! I know, sad! It seems like all my best friends have to go somewhere far away and I’m destined to be alone and use msn mssg to keep in touch with them.
Anyway, So far I’m having so much fun hanging out with people and having a great time… but everything would be gone next week. 90% of the people I hang out with will be gone by Saturday and I’ll have to find new friends in P-town again. Isn’t sad? I feel I’m going to be depressed again sometime soon. At least in 20 days I’ll be at home and I’ll have a car for sure!

So I have a crush on someone! I know this person since February, and we just been friends since then. Lately I have this huge crush and I’m so scared to invite that person out on a date. I feel I’m not good enough; I feel insecure… but for now just talking on the phone, chatting and text messaging is enough. I met this other person at the club (which I’ll call blue eyes) Blue eyes is cute and cool, but I just like “blue yes” I don’t have a crush on him. I do have a crush in the other person thou! I feel frustrated! I don’t know what to do! I don’t know if that person likes me back or not! I can’t tell! 

Lately I’ve gone shopping like crazy, every weekend I come with new Nordstrom, Banana and Hollister bags! Since I have unsecured credit, credit cards are my favorite toys!! I can’t wait until Vegas to do serious shopping for my fall clothes! Sad huh? Because I don’t feel comfortable with myself if I’m not wearing pretty clothes or until I feel comfortable with my outfit. Actually I found it really stupid, but I have tried to dress like a “regular BYU white boy” and it just doesn’t feel comfortable, I feel ugly and I feel like nobody. Anyway… at least in my new place almost everyone dresses well and people are really metro, so I don’t feel bad dressing good. BTW I love Belmont condos! I’m moving there tomorrow!

My very best friend from back Home is coming to visit me next week! She is coming with her cousin and it’s going to be great! I’m really excited to see her and to hang out with her! I think I’m going to “come out” with her and see how things go. I feel like I need to tell her about “me”, we’ll see if I ended up doing it!
My best friend of my exchange student year is coming as well! She’s coming from Venezuela tomorrow night! I’m about to “pee” my pants to see her after 2 years! She is getting here on time for my birthday! She is adorable! Who would travel so far for my birthday? I feel loved that 2 of my best friends are coming to Utah to visit me and hang out with me! I’m so lucky to have such great friends and it really shows me that friends are there no matter the distance or time. (yeah I know I just said that I will feel lonely because my p-town friends are leaving… but I won’t have anyone to hang out with! So it’s sad for me! But I know that at least one of them will be in touch with me) Anyway… Real friends are there when you need them no matter what… I’m happy that I have few FRIENDS (even thou they’re far far far away)

So I’m getting old, I’m going to be 20 years old in 2 days…. I’m not doing anything special for it. I think I’d get depressed if I have a party. My Venezuelan friend is going to be here, so that’s way too cool for my birthday, just to hang out with her it’d make my day happy! I’m really excited for my birthday thou! I have my last rehearsal for team, I’m learning the mambo scene for the “West side story” (oh yeah, I’m in a play!) I’m going to see my friend from Venezuela and I have a free dance lesson! My teacher is giving me my “birthday present”! cool huh?! And Finally! She’s going to see me dancing!! I’ll be in my new place with my 2 cool roommates… so yeah! Not a bad day at all (I hope)

Anyway, so many random things, and few to say! Time to go!

Monday, July 10, 2006


So What’s going on with My crazy life?

I don’t know where to start. It has been a while since I wrote my last blog, and It has happened a lot of things now and then. Well I think the best news is that I’m not in warning anymore! I’m in “good standing”! I finish all my Religion Credits and I’m almost done with generals! I still have to take Humanities 202, which should be easier that 201 and cooler as well. And My First Writing College class for internationals students! Finally I’m going to learn how to write better! (Yeah I know you’re making fun of my writing me right now … you evil homo! - Sapient... Haha)

Well social life is a mess right now. I haven’t been at parties, people are disappearing like “pan caliente” and I’m a loner again! Well I can’t complain that much, the “loser” has been a great friend lately! (even thou he won’t clean my stuff, take my Spanish tests or watch Kyle XY with me! Haha jk jk ) My Latina friend is being such a great friend as well.. But she hangs out with all those “pretty Mormon people” (that I would be neighbors with) and sometimes I get a little bit frustrated because they are way too cocky and way too straight for me…but at least they CALL me to hang out.. not like others… ANYWAY…

Random things: I love “THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA” tomorrow the soundtrack is out and I’m so going to buy it! Everyone should watch that movie! It’s so good… Meryl Streep does a great job! And the movie game me the “fashion” mood so I have been shopping a lot! Nordstrom and “online” stores are my favorites now! I’m such a clothes whore! Last night I did laundry and yeah.. 8 ½ loads of clothes!! And you should of seen my closet, I still had like 4 pair of jeans and a lot of shirts… and I’m saving money to go to Vegas to shop some BEATIFUL clothes before I go to Costa Rica and Colombia :D

So I decided to move out before the end of this month, I can’t stand my place, it smells UGLY and it’s so gretto! I hate it! My new place is going to be great! It’s nice and big and hopefully clean! My room is similar to the one I have, descent size and a small “walking closet” so I’m happy. Now I really need a car, I have to decide when I want to take the driving class AGAIN! And have a stupid driver’s license so I can get a car. If I buy a car all my “account” would be almost empty and I won’t be able to shop, but it’s so worth it! I need one and really bad! Especially if I’m moving by 7 peaks, that’s like far away from campus.

Dancing is doing great! I have improved a lot since last semester and now I can learn quickly and be “descent” at it! I haven’t missed any class at 7am yet! And my routines are coming nicely. Today I taught a HARD routine to my dance partner, I was impressed that I knew the girls part for a Routine of 1:20 mins! I knew all the counts, steps, figures, turns and such… AND I made a Tripple-Swing-Jive routine as well! By MYSELF!!! My teacher was impressed and he kept almost all of it! (Even though I ended up telling him to changed everything, but we kept a lot of it) I love it when people come and ask me how to do a figure or teach them how to do it better… I love it! That means that my minor is getting better and better… (Dance should be my mayor)

Well Other than having clean clothes, dancing, busy school, dancing 25-30 hours a week, and OHHH!!!! MY JOB! Finally I had job!! I was proud of that too! I never have had a job before I was trying to get some extra money to get pretty stuff in Vegas! Haha.. I did custodial at the dorms (sad I know) and I worked at the Stadium of Fire too. (where I met Miss United States! Soo hot!) But I couldn’t take 9 credits for summer, dance so much and have a job… So I quit today! Hehe.. But still I can work only on Tuesdays for 4 hours… at least I made over $100 in one day... working like 12 hours on Saturday!

Anyway, I have to take a online quiz and take a home-take test…

Cd of the Week:

Madonna: Hanky Panky, Vogue, Jump, Get Together (because of Prada and the show on Friday)

Shakira: Hips don’t lie- Bamboo (2006 Fifa World Cup mix) (( VIVE LA ITALIA!!!!!!! They won the WORLD CUP!))

DLG: La Quiero Morir Mix

KT Tunstall: Black Horse and the Cherry tree… (Btw it’s a cool samba)

Dashboard Confessionals: Don’t Wait

Gnalrs Barkley: Crazy

Cassie: Me and You (Ying Yang Twins Mix )

Fort Minor: Where’d go

The Fray: Cable Car

Christina Aguilera: Ain’t no other man

Nelly Furtado: Maneater

The pussycat dolls: Buttons

Rihanna: Unfaithful

Thom Yorke: Balck Swan; The Clock

AFI: Miss Murder

For MANA Fans: Amor es compatir is OUT!

And who likes Radiohead… Thom Yorke’s cd is good. I like it.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

How Abnormal Am i?

You Are 44% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.